Last week I made the decision to withdraw from my MS program in
aerospace engineering at Texas A&M to pursue full-time work in the
Structural Test Laboratory at Boeing in Tukwila, Washington. This delays but
does not eliminate the day when I earn an advanced degree in engineering. There
are a number of reasons (good) why this is happening.
During my first year of graduate school, Texas A&M awarded me a
generous financial support package. Though it only provided for the first year
of my MS program, I was confident my advisor and I could find either a
fellowship or a research or teaching assistantship to pay for my second year.
When that turned out not to be the case, I re-evaluated my future plans.
Working at Boeing will allow me to earn a master’s from the University
of Washington with the company’s financial support. I won’t become eligible for
the program until next summer, and will have to proceed at a slower pace since
I’ll be working full time while taking classes, but the contrast couldn’t be
clearer between starting work next summer several thousand dollars in debt and
starting work in a few months with my savings intact. Financially, I knew I’d
be better off going the Boeing way than staying at A&M, but there was more
to consider.
UW is a fine academic institution, with an excellent program in
aerospace engineering. I don’t think I’m trading down getting my final degree
from there rather than Texas A&M. I enjoyed the work I did in the
structures lab last summer. The work there is technically engaging, exposes me
to a wide variety of projects, and makes me feel like I’m really making an
impact on the program. In a year or so I should be able to go down to the high
bay in Tukwila, see a major piece of structural equipment, and tell people “I
thought of that. I can tell you why it’s shaped the way it is.” That kind of
tangible ownership is what first attracted me to engineering.
There are a few things I’ll miss about College Station. I’ve lived here
long enough that it feels a bit like home. It’s a lot of fun being able to
scream my lungs out every once in a while at midnight yell. St. Mary’s is
without question the best religious atmosphere I’ve ever seen, and a major
component of why I’ve spent so much of the last two years learning more about
Catholicism. That said, on balance I’m thrilled at the prospect of moving on to
Seattle. Puget Sound is one of the best places in the world to be as a young
professional right now. It’s physically beautiful, rewards wandering, and is full
of young, fresh college grads like me. I’ve never been anywhere else that feels
as vibrant, young, and alive as
Seattle does. As long as my brain can handle the dearth of sunlight in the
winter, I’d be happy to set down roots there and settle in for a good long
while.
Since departing from A&M now makes sense from both financial and
personal standpoints, this really wasn’t that difficult of a decision to make.
That said, I can’t help but feel a bit anxious about the whole thing. I’m not
exaggerating when I say that I literally can’t remember a time when I wasn’t
being told daily that I need to strive for excellence in school. Do well in
school, do more school, and above all just keep working up the academic system,
I was told. Now here I am with every rational indication I have telling me that
more school, at least immediately, is the opposite of a good idea. It’s a
thrilling realization, but one mixed with a large dollop of vertigo.
There are so many things I’ve wanted to do over the years. I want to
wander about some Pacific islands. I want to write, not in fits and starts for
a few paragraphs, but steadily, till I have something I can proudly call an
example of my creativity. I want to figure out if there’s any merit to the
peace I see in my religious friends’ lives, or if my atheist friends are closer
to the truth. For the next few months I’ll be living in a strange sort of
interlude, neither student nor professional. I don’t know when I’ll next have a
time in my life as ripe for this kind of freestyle exploration, and my top
immediate priority should be using it to the fullest.